colours/

2010-11-09T15:59:00.005-05:00

i've moved to

http://shesayslessisalwaysmore.blogspot.com/

byebye lovingsunnydays.blogspot.com

2010-11-08T19:42:00.010-05:00

Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well.

my right toenail is in a darker shade,did you realized?
underneath it is all blood clot. got it when i was in singapore 3 months ago. too much of walking and running around without proper footwears. grrrr. serves me right!

i love my havaianas, dont you think they match my red toenails so so so perfectly??? im so upset that i cant go out like this. i miss summer. i miss wearing slippers and summer dresses.

maybe i should name myself Summer one day. hahaha.

melts melts melts..awwwww.

did loads of serious work today.

contented.

2010-11-08T01:32:00.005-05:00

sunmeng just had a super nice weekend!

you know what, i really dont like mascaras.im too lazy for them. i complain like hell (all the time) when i have to remove them from my short;not pretty lashes.

like it or not, i am a lazy girl. that's who i am.

arg it's monday.
monday blues is here.
i feel it!
):

2010-11-06T00:00:00.007-04:00

life is all about making choices

it's just a guessing game?

weather forecast says there's snow tomorrow!

i love snow

when i was searching for my white sony, i realized that im starting to hate my camera..dont ask me why. grrrrr. i need a part time job. seriouslyyyyy. need work experience and my shopping list is bursting!!!

but im lazy.
and how do we apply for work permit?!?!

=.=

is someone coming over tomorrow?

hmmmm.
<3

2010-11-03T23:03:00.004-04:00

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.

sunny's pasta.

i think.. i feel hungry cause i know the fridge is all full! -.-

heart-shaped ice.

first time wearing boots for this winter. i love my summer shoes;hate UGG.

verina jumped into those pillows/blankets haha. they look so warm and comfyyyy. i want to sleep nowwwwwww.

im so so so tired.

both mentally and physically.

perhaps that explains my abnormal behaviors.

2010-11-02T15:50:00.047-04:00

nothing but ordinary

did you all just said,
they're pretty, skinny,smart, perfect complexion,good temper&grades,great cook?
whatever?

stop telling me how great those people are.
i know im nothing but chaos.
im not good enough for anyone.

i hate explorations.
in the end you'll come back bleeding all over,
or even hurting other innocents.
i dislike myself for crying over the same things over and over again.
this is so dumb.

all of a sudden im so scared.
scared of being hurt again
and scared of hurting others again.

perhaps less is always more..?
i dont know.
i dont know what should i do now.

feel horrible today so decided to upload some fun photos on facebook.
haha seriously i was bursting this top.
im so fat,
fatter than everyone around me.

can you believe it? final exams are coming.

2010-11-01T23:58:00.001-04:00

Life is never easy for those who dream.

i dont know why i felt so so so tired today :/

im planning to sleep at 12am, which is 10 min later~

woho cant wait to get 12 hours of sleep!

but..

i dont really feel like putting down the phone.

teehee

good night steno

2010-10-30T21:48:00.002-04:00

best relationship and academic adviser award

leonard a.k.a leo has been my best relationship&academic adviser since high school. though 90% of time time i dont listen to his advices hahahaha which means 90% of the time i run into him with my tears running like tap water. he's my best guy friend in canada whom i can share anything with (:

girl, devote your love and time to your family, friends or even yourself. at this age, no man worth your true love. trust me, not even him.. sometimes i dont understand how some people (mostly guys) can let go of a relationship so fast or easily.. hmm maybe we are all still young. we dont really know what love; truly understand it?

all the best to you. though i dont really know you. lol.

P.S. i didnt get to meet my favourite someone today. kinda disappointed but i couldnt do anything about it ): pretty upset. but it was no one's fault.

2010-10-30T01:06:00.000-04:00

looking forward to everything, anything related to you; us.

good night

2010-10-28T21:09:00.015-04:00

sometimes, you're my random inspirations.

this afternoon, you turned my paper clips into little hearts.
><

2010-10-28T00:18:00.006-04:00

Patience is bitter, but it bears sweet fruit.

i missed my bus stop again =.= despite the wind, i enjoyed my little walk home~ sun was great, red maples were really pretty and those dried leaves on the ground gave that sentimental feeling, like alway (:

left arm muscles are aching quite badly. i cant believe that someone actually enjoys this kind of feeling.. =.= steno, you are weirdddddddddd. hahaha.

im on the phone!
yay yay yay~

good luck for tests people!
<3

2010-10-27T00:33:00.004-04:00

tech-savvy is just not the right word for me

twitter is damn confusing please! i think the chinese version of "twitter" is so much easier to understand. i hate IT related stuffs. and this is why i chose to update my iphone once every 4 months. grrrr. anyway, follow me on twitter if you dont mind reading my stupid rants and random upates! http://twitter.com/sunmengg im so happy that im finally on twitter cause my favorite friends in singapore are all so active there! :D

sometimes i feel embarrassed by myself when i get irritated so easily. sometimes i just cant control myself but to look for a shoulder to cry on desperately.

did you know.. im independent yet dependent?

2010-10-25T21:02:00.005-04:00

a day to remember

其实有时候幸福真的很简单.

就好比.. 喜欢上一个人的声音；

喜欢上一个人的陪伴；

习惯性把一个人放在心里；

希望他、她一切都好.

幸福很简单；

简单就是幸福

2010-10-24T22:11:00.014-04:00

Je t'aime bien !

2010-10-24T02:20:00.002-04:00

Hello World!

#include

using namespace std;

void usage () {

cerr << "Usage : please input 3 commands! " <<; endl;

exit ( -1 ); // TERMINATE

} // usage

int main ( int argc, char *argv[] ){

switch ( argc )

case 1:

cout << "please input some shit! " << endl;

break;

case 2:

cout << "please input more shit! " << endl;

case 3:

cout << "please input more shit! " << endl;

case 4:

cout << "please input "i like Steno" " << endl;

case 5:

cout << "That's enough! " << endl;

break;

default:

usage;

}

2010-10-22T21:23:00.006-04:00

i'd love to spend my entire afternoon in a book store

the cover page of this psy magazine seemed so much more appealing to me than Vogue/Teen Vogue/Seventeen. haha! maybe i'm turning nerd. (which is a good sign :D )

these days, i feel that im more like an introvert rather than extrovert..

i've changed. haven't i?

once, sis told me, "the fear is here when trust is broken.".

perhaps there's some kind of fear in me which has been accumulating for years.
you'd never know who stabs you at the back the next second.

it could be anyone.

i sort of want to overcome this fear.
i want to be that old sunmeng who trusts all her loved ones.

but how?

2010-10-21T21:46:00.006-04:00

what if i say..i want that option B now.

major in Economics,

major in Psychology,

minor in Anthropology.

Honors BBA (Business Admin.)

sunmeng, you ought to be shot. you're such a greedy girl. you cant accept a basket of strawberries when you're already carrying a huge watermelon! tsk tsk tsk.

there are so many things which we crave for in life.. it's impossible to own every single one of them. therefore, we are forced to learn how to make choices.
it wasnt me in the picture. i wished it was though. haha.

P.S. I bet you're really tired now.Cause you kept running through my mind.

2010-10-21T10:56:00.004-04:00

talking to you makes me cheerful

i planned to be MIA from school for awhile cause i had a pretty bad sprain on my lower back. BUT, i have midterm today and tomorrow and i really hate to do make-up tests.. so wth my plan was ruined =.=

i dont even know why i cried to much yesterday. actually it doesnt feel that bad to be unwell. cause you get to stay on your comfy bed most of the time teehee. (though every move of your back hurts like crazy)

i was so glad that verina was at home last night. i didnt want to explain my tears to her cause just the presence of a human being was enough to comfort me from anything.

that was all i needed.

and maybe a kitty,
if it's possible.

2010-10-19T22:39:00.005-04:00

please sleep at 12am!

good night~

pretty upset today cause a call came to me telling me that i was rejected for a course which i was dying to get into. damn it.. 100% disappointed and demoralized. )': on the verge of tearing. hmm nvm.. life, sometimes, is a challenge.. sighs.

i hope that they're still selling cotton candy in school tomorrow! cause cotton candy is so cute and romantic. it cheers me up.

2010-10-18T23:28:00.010-04:00

good girl.

i want to be a good girl who
sits beside you quietly when you're busy
crack jokes with you when you're bored
listens to you when you sing
kiss you good night before you sleep
and always be there for you when you need someone.

but it seems kinda impossible though..

hahaha -.- sunmeng, you dont have the right to think about silly things and smile to yourself on a monday night just because you dont have any class on tuesdays!

i want a halloween party.maybe host one myself or something. i wanna get dressed up.in interesting costumes and invite all my favorite friends over :D my sexy pirate look turned out to be such a big failure last year LOL!

OH GOSH.
i wanna reveal a secret so badly..
i was *kg lighter in that picture.
T.T

2010-10-17T23:21:00.004-04:00

time is money

perhaps it's time to work towards my own goals, rather than following the crowd aimlessly.i hope it's not too late though..

leo, thanks for the encouragement.

i'm so glad that at least i have a supporter..

all of a sudden, i missed this girl so much.

cherryLiu, do you still remember that crazy saturday afternoon in my room?

please dont forget me..

i'd cry if you do.

P.S. i wouldn't mind walkin' backwards with you,

at least we'd always know where we'd be going to.

2010-10-16T12:32:00.014-04:00

did they say they knew me better than me?

there's nothing wrong to wake up in the noon realizing you've just missed the lovely sunlight which only comes to your room every morning.

there' also nothing wrong to wake up from an unrealistic beautiful dream realizing that everything was just a luxury which you'd never be able to afford.

---

saturday, gotta study for two midterms and start working on one assignment. dont feel like going anywhere but just within my own comfort zone. it takes a lot of courage to be adventurous. i was, but now the cycle is just annoying me. no matter how hard you try, it would end up in the same way? wouldnt it?

sometimes life is an irony.

you feel like you're tearing apart but you're perfectly fine.

you're smiling but you're sobbing.

you're realistic but you still wished for something,

something much more than this.

2010-10-14T20:24:00.006-04:00

what a wonderful day

perhaps i had too much sugar today? (though it was just 2 mint mentos)

im feeling happy and getting high over the tiniest things on earth

i just.. feel so blessed

with all those lovely friends

(:

though you make me feel insecure and not confident at times,
i still sort of like the chemistry between us.

byebye. my readings are desperate for me~

2010-10-13T23:20:00.003-04:00

a random surprise made my day.

2010-10-12T22:10:00.020-04:00

homesick

spent about half an hour doing my nails today. they broke again while i was washing dishes. looking at those broken /uneven nails and dry hands, all of a sudden i got so depressed. i miss mummy so badly. . i know that dad,mum,sis or even my little brother are not gonna be right beside me for my whole life and i gotta learn how to be independent. But, sometimes im really tired of being alone in canada. i miss having them around. maybe im just having PMS or maybe i'm just not in a good mood today. didnt get a good sleep last night cause it was so cold, poor roommate came to knock on my door at 9am with tears all over her face (awww), tough day in school (damn it), had to be home to cook dinner, wash dishes, do laundry, tonnes of readings to do. and now im all alone in this cold,quiet house. i dont wanna call mom to rant or complain cause i know it would upset her too ): yes i know im such a spoilt kid who tears over her ugly hands and super-short finger nails. but sometimes i really want a normal life, with family members near you but not a pacific ocean away. it's my 13th year away from home..

i've always thought that fall is such a sentimental season..

sometimes, leonard lim can be such a good listener. it's really hard to get a friend who really understands you,trust you and shares loads of secrets with you. i know i've never said this before but, thank you leo. this convo in the picture was a few days ago though. & he said 'u r nuts' to me 2 times today ^^ thanks for the comment buddy. really appreciate it.

P.S. maybe it's time to be really selfish, to be selective, and to make my special someone to feel special.

2010-10-12T00:48:00.008-04:00

Rhythm Of Love - Plain White T's

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

another song stuck in my head.
love is a kind of drug,
dont you think so?

by the way, today's dinosaur's 21st birthday! happy birthday dinosaur (:
LOOK, i drank the tea you gave me on your birthday! hahaha

wanted to get help from my roommate but she was..kinda busy so i took it myself -.-
SEE, IM WEARING MY INNOVA SHIRT!
never gonna forget those days with you in innova junior college.
(:

P.S. I MISS YOU XU NUO

2010-10-11T01:53:00.003-04:00

Pack Up - Eliza Doolittle

有时候想把以前的事情都擦掉
不想听不想知道什么都别说
只想好好过现在的生活

不想解释懂我的人不需要不懂的人不值得

啦啦啦
其实今天超级开心的也 ^.^
<3

2010-10-10T02:01:00.007-04:00

Tattoo

sometimes,
i'd love to own some of those edgy stuffs
but even though i can get pretty obsessed with them,
some old school rules keep whirling around in my head.
ya,i can still be a mama's girl with those crazy ideas secretly going on in my mind.
i love this tattoo.
it's beautiful.

actually to be honest,
i prefer the term" live like there's no tomorrow"
as compared to "happily ever after".
how about you?

and i wonder if it's just another dream which would disappear when i wake up the next morning.

2010-10-09T03:09:00.003-04:00

stuck like glue

secrets are never meant to be told,
remember?
-
(:

2010-10-07T01:22:00.004-04:00

sometimes

sometimes i feel like going out for an adventure.
but i think im that kind of girl who can be timid and inconsistent.
maybe someday i'd be brave enough to do what i wanna do.
but.. i wonder when would that be?

actually,
dont wait for me.
im not worth the wait.
at least,
i don think so.

P.S. Timeflies when msn is on. haha.

2010-10-06T01:29:00.003-04:00

i want a puppy or kitten

i think there's some kind of chaos going on in my mind. i dont really know what im thinking. neither do i know what im doing. i think i am. but i think im not..?

what to do?
what to do?
what to do?

i love this kitty
im gonna upload MANY MANY pictures of him on facebook soon.
awwww so cute!!!! MELTS.

2010-10-04T01:02:00.005-04:00

it's freaking 12-7 degrees celsius tomorrow

after chatting with leo, i feel that it's nearly impossible for me to get an asian boyfriend? maybe i should get a white or black boyfriend. they like girls with curves. in the asian term, that would be fats. i just love eating what i love and i just love being myself for being lazy to gym and attend every yoga session~ lalalala. i should have just confessed to my african eye-candy in high school.

it's monday again. im doing a volunteer job with verina at the meeting place from 11am-12pm for the Breast Cancer Foundation. Come by and support us if you're free! we're selling some ribbons and badges :D

damn it. it's 1.18am. i just missed the perfect time for a facial mask. grrr.
good night people.
have a great monday!

maybe im really tired of those stuffs

2010-10-01T23:40:00.008-04:00

a special friend

it's really hard to let go of someone who have been around you for more than two years. last night, i cried my lungs out after he confessed that he's looking for his Ms. Right but sadly the person is not me. i know it's so normal for it to happen and nobody's gonna wait for anyone forever. and i know it's childish to cry over such things but.. i just couldnt hold any tears.

about a year ago, although we did stupid and crappy things to each other, we were willing to let go of everything to start all over again. unfortunately sometimes i got so greedy that i forgot how lucky i was. & sometimes, he got so impatient that he forgot everything he promised. some of you may be surprised if i say he was one of the best i've ever had. after going through so much together, he still loved me and cared about me. till, today.

now, for him, he's gonna get a new girl whom he'd chat with everyday before he sleeps, he'd say those sweet little things to her when she gets upset, he'd bring her to try out the latest new restaurant in town. he's not going to have anytime for me, the troublesome and dependent crybaby sunmeng.

would you believe that if i were to say i was the one who let him down this time?

i thought that we are no longer those teenagers who could be stubborn and get into stupid random troubles. as we grow older, we have new responsibilities to bear and new goals to work towards to.

im happy for you that u have decided to move on to your new life. and i hope that you'd feel happy for me too if i were to find another special person who im able to lean on.

and i should feel happy for them too.
His gf came to look for him and they went to his lec hand in hand.
He had a sweet gf for more than half a year & he's having loads of fun now.
yep, i should feel happy for all of them...
but how about for myself?

2010-09-27T01:40:00.012-04:00

tough week ahead

can you believe that i havent even been to any psy lectures!? to think that test 1 is this friday T.T damn it. gonna screw psy again.

i've been getting flu?cold? or whatever it is once every month. really hate canada's weather. the day before was like 26 degree cel. but today was freezing cold. uhhh cant wait to get my flu shot, it protected me from virus for the whole winter last year. seriously need it ASAP! i hate to see a pile of tissue paper on my table when im studying.

how how how!
im not done with any revisions.
2 tests & a quiz.
im SO stressed!
i took dinosaur's advice to get some rest now and then continue tomorrow.
roarrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i love my new house! especially my room :D

loved my hair today hahah

i took the test in feb and after all those stupid sh*t finally received it today -.- phewww

no more drop dead diva & vampire diaries !
i should cover my table with BOOKS.

i'd like to thank some of my friends for listening to my rants and nonsense for the past few days/weeks.lol.
really appreciate it.
(:
including you.

2010-09-22T18:18:00.018-04:00

it's time to get back on track

after TWO weeks of classes, i just realized there's a conflict on my timetable =.= worse, i just got to know that there are TWO tests and a quiz coming up next week. oh gosh. what's wrong with me! seriously i have to improve on my time management. if not i will screw up both studies and work like hell.
WAKE UP~~~~!

_____

on the lighter note, after being confused and worried for two months, im finally getting my CAD4000+ back in my student account!!! the only sad thing is that, i have to go down to the student account office personally ): Spadina.. how am i suppose get there with my horrible sense of directions? help help help. anyone interested in having a walk with me at downtown toronto?

every cup of tim hortons' iced capp reminds of our cic linden hall days,
with my dearest 211 roommies caro&benni.
believe it or not,
i miss cic.
a lot.
(:

你永远不知道

im happy to be back in my own little world with my own lovely friends. please just stay away from me. yes i might be tearing right now but tmr you'd see my lovely smile again. cause im sunnyyyyyyyyy
TEEHEE
:)

2010-09-20T23:29:00.004-04:00

omg

im hinting my mum that

1. canada's winter is crazily cold.
2. city bus is super inefficient
3. time is money
4. canada's cars&gas are SO MUCH cheaper than singapore's
5. private car is more safe than city bus

i think i should start taking G2 classes next week.
:D
it's gonna take months but... still,
WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE.

2010-09-19T23:55:00.000-04:00

I love talking on the phone before going to sleep.I feel like calling him but..nvm. I should just daydream to sleep.it's time to learn how to be independent.

Good night people~

2010-09-17T23:26:00.011-04:00

move on

perhaps the best thing to do is to move on.
if everyone else, including him, can do it so easily then why cant i?

random clubbing last night was super-random and today's ikea was so full! anyhow, i really missed ikea food. roommate just went to her friend's house to sleep over. kinda bored being alone at home..

if you wanna leave, please just disappear from my world.
since you're happy with your new life then enjoy it.
since you've forgotten about me please dont talk to me.
but strangely i still miss you.
do you miss me?
i bet not..
祝你幸福

2010-09-14T23:46:00.006-04:00

hate blocked nose

how come he always sees me when im in really bad conditions!why why why!

he doesnt know; he'll never know. but still, little thing like this makes my day.
(:

im keeping a distance cause
im afraid of falling for you again

2010-09-13T22:16:00.006-04:00

MONDAY BLUES

im having a terrible mood swing now.

i hate you for being such a liar, i hate the amount of work i have to do, i hate those busybodies in school and I HATE TAKING THE BUS ALONE. AND I HATE SEEING LOVING COUPLES AROUND CAMPUS.

seriously i dont feel like doing anything now but to sleep or watch kangxi.
im starving, shall i grab some food from the kitchen?

today's korean lunch

))))))))))))))))))))):

2010-09-12T12:28:00.004-04:00

the same old place

all of us are back here again, to this familiar place but surrounded with unfamiliar people & feelings. sometimes i wonder is it them who changed us, or is it us who changed them? perhaps we did hold a grudge on them..but eventually, we realized that we could do nothing but to keep silent. time is the best cure for everything, remember?

first few days of 2nd year was busy with activities and outings. i was really glad to see most of my old friends around school. hmm though at times, did bump into people whom i wanted to meet the least. *rolls eyes

and as expected, i got a good friend back (: we're spending more time together; sharing out crazy little thoughts and gossips. i didnt really blame your priority of relationship over friendship cause i understand that people get crazy when they are in love. just to let you know, i'll always be here for you.

i love canada's fall. it's so cooling and comfy.
kinda lazy to upload photos here today so check out my facebook album~
click here

2010-09-04T13:24:00.005-04:00

waiting for nothing

maybe i was just happy that i might be able to get a good friend back, or maybe i was just being pure selfish by not wanting anyone to own him in that way?

i think im super-emotional these days. i planned to make a scrapbook for my brother based on our singapore trip last month. BUT APPARENTLY, EVERY SINGLE PHOTO I TOOK IN SINGAPORE DISAPPEARED! all thanks to my sis's old acer T.T i almost cried when i realized that all 6 folders were gone.. monday monday, my last day in china for this year, im so going to bring that old laptop for a professional help!!!
):
wish me luck people.

where are you. i cant find you. i dont see you

2010-09-02T03:12:00.004-04:00

wake me up when september ends

you know what's the best way to loose weight? join an expensive fitness club. you wouldnt miss a single session thinking of the set of numbers you had on your credit card bill. haha silly but it works!

mom has latin dance class everyday, i tried to accompany her for the first few days (i had a few free sessions :D) but apparently.. i think bella swan and i could be bestfriends if we were in the same school. i looked hilariously stupid doing latin dance -.- jogging, sit ups and cycling are more my kind of thing.

mom bought me this plant when i came back from canada in june.i named it Greenie. It grew so much during these 3 months! im so proud of myself that my Greenie's healthy,green and alive :D sis didnt water her plant at all for one whole month. obviously, her plant died. though she tried to save it by pouring tonnes of water at it when it was already dead hahaha. anyway im gonna miss it causei watered and observed it almost everday. i told mom to take good care of Greenie. hopefully it'd still be alive after 1 or 2 years? )':

im hate my hair colour. im thinking if i should dye it again but it's gonna damage my hair so much ): maybe i should wait till winter break to do it? sighs. gonna a hair cut later, feeling damn nervous now. i think i have this phobia of visiting salons.

4 days left.

dinosaur went to thailand, lim tsuwie went to taiwan, and he went back to canada.

2010-08-30T01:37:00.003-04:00

in a week's time

i just realized that so many people are back in canada already. which means, im leaving home really soonnnnn. i have to admit that actually im kind of excited about year two cause we are no longer freshmen :D also, 99% of my friends moved out of residence this year and we have our own houses or apartments now! i cant wait to visit their new places, have our cooking and mahjong sessions, sleepovers, hot pot gathering, etc etc. it's gonna be funn~

leo called me last night to share his exciting story at home, in malaysia. im so envious of him! how come i never gt to experience anything fun like that. stupid leo is forever busy during holidays. well, he's forever too busy, or rather, lazy for facebook and to appear ONLINE -.-

omg wth i just broke a glassssssssss。cause i got too excited while looking at frejia beha erichsen's photos hahaha. sorry mom.

2010-08-28T15:20:00.001-04:00

20 months.
but apparently, we had a fight. again.

2010-08-27T02:02:00.010-04:00

we talked, again

i just went to shan's blog. miss you shan (:

zhao gege went back to shanghai this morninggggg. i bet it's gonna be another 2 years to see him again? how sad. everyone's getting busy; busy with uni, work, boyfriends, girlfriends or even fiancees? well, i should convince myself that im not pressurized cause im the youngest and i'm enjoying the freedom and carefreeness im having right now. sunmeng are you enjoying it, arent you!

i thought it was supposed to be a mini peaceful gathering last night, to chitchat and sing our favourite emo songs.but apparently..it's proven again that early plans never worked out. it was full of cheering, screaming, jumping and secret sharing. zhang ao told me some high school secrets involving me which i never knew till last night! i was super-shocked! i think till nowwww? wth lol. but i really got to thank him for boosting my confidence and comforting me all the time (: sometimes i really wish he was with me in toronto but not ottawa.

alcohol makes me chatty. after tossing and turning on the bed for awhile, i decided to call siwei. i felt rather bad cause i was supposed to call her when i was in singapore. but thank god the call wasnt too late (: honestly i was really glad to hear that she's coping well with everything. in the past, i've always thought that she's a little girl who is undecisive and dependent. hmm it seems that summer break is essential, especially for those students who come back to their hometowns once a year. we need our families. and friends.

i think im having a bad hang over right now. it's the worst hang over in this summer ):

2010-08-25T15:13:00.002-04:00

nothing ever changes

when we were still primary school kids, we left home for education in a foreign country together. in singapore, we started our new life under one roof and lived as a big family for about 9 years. looking at those old photos, i cant believe that we've known each other for more than 13 years (:

dinner was a blast. i ate too much, as usual. went to yi's place for mahjong till 3am. ao was my partner haha sadly we lost 50 bucks but we had so much funnnnnnnn! :D

<3 <3 <3

what am i thinking..

2010-08-24T14:00:00.004-04:00

So tired of feeling blue.
such a heavy weight on you.
So shake it off and make your way
to somewhere different .
to somewhere different .

Oh no now you’re leaving me
oh what will you do all alone
in the big bad world?
I'm not worried, no.
Cause you’re gonna skip along,
Quite merrily, baby.

2010-08-23T11:33:00.001-04:00

cough is getting worse

i hate being sick. i hate chinese medicines. so bitter; taste so horrible ):

seriosly im really bored at home. sis's busy with school in singapore, yangyang's suffering in camp (haha). the house feels damn empty now, hate this feeling! im so glad at least i have people to talk to on msn, fun people like my cute cute friend dinosaur hahahaha.

it seems that most of my childhood friends are back from england, toronto, ottawa, vancouver, and shanghai :D cant wait to see all of them. congjie's boyfriend is here as well, how exciting heh. it's such a pity that NUS started school so early ): jiejie is unable to join us.and that totally sucks!

2 more weeks

2010-08-21T05:24:00.000-04:00

home sweet home

adlin, kathleen, cheryl, sebastz & janet!
thank you
(((((:

yangyang was super-happy to receive a present from kong long jiejie.he had the box on his laps for a very very long time hahaha and he kept reading the letter (: as usual, i teared like mad when the plane took off heh. and as usual, i felt strangers staring at me =.=

so far in this year, i've taken 5 domestic flights in china. im really embarrassed to say that only 1 of them was punctual. what's with this flight delay thing in china?? tskkkkkkkk.

had a few family gatherings these two days cause cousin brought her boyfriend home. he came all the way from xinjiang. after hearing so much from them, i wanna go xinjiang for my next holidayyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

am i seeing you soon?

2010-08-17T16:34:00.008-04:00

SIN-BEK today

i cant believe that my flight to beijing is in 5 hours' time?

twelve days is too short to express my feelings for everyone in singapore for the past two and a half years. i was really glad to see most of my close friends during this trip. although we didnt really spend that much of time together, but i was really happy. it feels so comfortable to be with old friends; those friends who went through hell of a lot with you, those whom you grew up with.

i realized that no matter how many years it's been, when we come together, we still act like those little girls with blue blouse, grey ties & grey skirts.
what do they say? once a cedarian, always a cedarian? haha. i loved my days in Cedar.
(:

besides meeting up with old friends, lulu,yangyang and i traveled quite a lot around singapore, which was really funnn. i shall share some of the pictures we took at those awesome tourists attractions soon.

also, i'd like to say a BIG THANK U to dinosaur and uncle johnny. thanks for having us for the past two weeks and taking care of us. dino, i'll never forget your herbal tea, honey water and the surprise you gave me. aiya howwww eyes teary alreadyyyy )': i'll try to go online in the morning when i get back to canada so that i'd be able to disturb you again. oh and please update me about forest, tree, flower, grass, soil (hahaha she's included too~). I'LL MISS JANET AND UNCLE JOHNNY <3 <3 <3

sadly, second year in uni is really crucial for me. im not sure if i'll give myself a break next summer. but.. hopefully miracles do happen? ):

i miss daddy&mummy. how i wished they were here with us.. but it's ok im seeing them tonight. (:

alright, super-duper slack china life's gonna start again. and it's gonna last for 19 days. hurray...

btw, Marina Bay Sands Singapore is awesome!

facebook me for more photos! sorry i realized that i've abandoned my renren. cause i have so much more friends on FB :D but i'll update it when im back to china (since FB is banned in China ):

2010-08-16T04:46:00.005-04:00

2 days left

dinosaur planned a surprise BBQ&Chalet for me. thanks a million dino! you've been such a great friend ((((((((((((((: you never fail to make me smile. thank u for listening to my bimbotic comments (haha) , repeating complains and pei-ing me for the past 11 days!

i was really happy to see some of my old classmates from cedar at the bbq. everyone was pretty much the same i guess.heh i missed everyone!

im waiting for pat's msg now. hopefully we'll get to meet up for awhile! tonight's gonna be steamboat with some high school friends from canadaaaaaaaa.

tmr's breakfast with nish :D, sentosa with lulu&yangyang, dinner with adlin&friends!

i dont really wanna leave

2010-08-14T12:35:00.002-04:00

happy happy happy

went clubbing with the girls last night :D slept at around 4 but had to get up early for JURONG BIRD PARK with lulu&yangang -.- due to serious lack of sleep i was kinda in a bad mood during the whole trip. but seriously i was so touched when sis actually brought me medicine and dinosaur actually made herbal tea for me (yes dino-made herbal tea!) lovessssssssss

im not sure what's gonna happen tmr but dino's hint was to charge my camera!
IM EXCITED
:D

haha sorry i know i've got a million overdue pictures. i'll upload them when im free!

2010-08-11T00:29:00.003-04:00

it feels good to be back
(:

loves.

2010-08-02T05:59:00.004-04:00

i looked at every single photo i had in singapore.
and then i realized that,
it's time to update my singapore folder
im two years behind everyone..
so,
see you guys soon
:D

2010-07-30T12:56:00.000-04:00

sunny island i'll see u soon

sorry i was being really lazy to update this blog!

spend a week traveling around guangzhou, shenzhen, hongkong & macau! it was so funnnnnnn, especially HONGKONG. loved that place. caro caro caro i'll go hongkong again in the near future :D

i'll update more soon~
(:

i still miss you

2010-07-11T14:14:00.005-04:00

love is like playing the piano. first you must learn to play by the rules,then you must forget the rules and play from your heart

a month ago, i came back with hope and faith. but now, what am i left with? i just cant believe that it seems like you're totally out of my world. how sad. how disappointing.

on the lighter note, my birthday is coming & we've got it planned.

oh, have i mentioned that im starting to miss everyone in canada?

2010-07-05T12:09:00.004-04:00

I'm more than just an option
Refuse to be forgotten

sightseeing to be continued in china.
and then, singapore.

2010-06-27T23:22:00.000-04:00

please.
dont let it happen.
please..

2010-06-22T23:02:00.001-04:00

Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep

sis is back, it's a big reunion for the family! teehee she bought home loads of goodies from singapore ;D

outdoor swimming pool had it's grand open yesterday. the 3 of us had our first summer swimming competition. i came in second haha it was really surprising that sunlu actually lost =.=

oh man i miss facebook ):

and you.but you're gone.

2010-06-14T20:34:00.002-04:00

IM HOME

websites like youtube, facebook, blogger are still banned in china tskkkkkk. the server i used to have last year is no longer working ): sadly this new server i found doesnt allow me to gain full access to these websites. hopefully i'll get a better one soon!

journey back home took me about 24 hours this time cause my flight from beijing to henan was delayed due to the bad weather. i waited for 7 hours at beijing. arggg you wouldnt know how tired i was ))): and hungry too. i was so happyyyyy to find a pack of pocky in my bag muahaha

mum brought me to a doctor and he gave me loads of medicine. sighs. why am i always unwell..

hahaha yangyang loves visiting my place

im still having jet lag.
i've been sleeping at 9 and
waking up at 6am
:D

2010-06-11T10:02:00.000-04:00

im reaching beijing on my ID birthday.

hoho.

27th floor. too bad iphone cant to zoom in to see the CN tower.

and i love washing the dishes cause the view is sooooo nice. especially at night.

girls in action

now you know who has the most power in the family hahaha

byebye canada~ leaving for pearson airport in an hour's time. i'd miss all my friends.. every single one of them..

mmmm cant wait to see our new home ,and my new room
(:

i'll update again when im settled down at Henan.

2010-06-10T04:54:00.004-04:00

five in the morning

it's almost 5am and i havent even finished packinggggg :/

seriously tomorrow's gonna be a super-busy day!

i have to:
-bank at TD
-meet my future/new roommate to pass her the rent
-visit Rogers to freeze my account for 3 months
-School academic advise counsellor, for idk what reason lol
-meet lily at square one to get some party goodies from dollarama
-join kathryn and her roommate at T&T
-cook cook cook & get the party ready
-PARTY!
-bring my stuffs over to caro's place from sophia's
-pack again and get ready to fly across the pacific ocean, for twelve hours!

i think i'll post some pictures tomorrow :D ok i should go get some sleep nowwwww the sky is getting bright again -.- oh btw, thanks for the visit, allen and Li Ning (:

what if i say it's... much more than just a habit.
would you believe me?

2010-06-07T20:28:00.007-04:00

for my jiejie

every year before the start of a new academic year, september, apple offers attractive promotions for students. this year, it's called the Macbook Pro Madness. every macbook pro has a education discount ranging from CAD100-200. with that, an additional purchase of ANY IPOD gets a CAD200 discount. (which means you can get an itouch for free!)

tell me, who is NOT moved by this promotion!?lol being a big fan of apple, im definitely getting this package, not for myself though (: it's for my sister. since i've been thinking of getting her a present for quite some time. mmm a 15-inch macbook pro plus an itouch.. i bet she's so excited that she could probably swallow 10 bowls of mee soto? heh.

anyhow i think it's a good deal for apple lovers. actually i really really really want a macbook myself but i my hp laptop is only one and a half year old ): and sis has been using the acer which we bought 3 years back? so, jiejie comes first!

to be honest i really miss my elder sister after coming to canada. for the past 20 years, she's been giving in to me; tolerating my horrible temper and helping me with all kinds of mess that i've created. though she's only a year older than me but i've always felt like a kid when im with her, seeking for shelter and protection. im the problematic and spoilt second child but she's the perfect sensible and smart first child. not forgetting, with good grades.

jie, did you realized that you're the only one who is still surviving the singapre battle? you did us proud! i love you jie. cant wait for our summer tripssssssss.
(:

XOXO

2010-06-05T00:34:00.009-04:00

home in a week's time

korean food and korean&japanese supermarket with benni :D

have been spending most of my afternoons in the library with wall street & toronto star.

a girl's secret recipe.

omg caro. i love you for sending this to me at 1am. thank uuuuuuuuu! i loved the red bean soup. XOXO

a rainy summer night, with thunder,
but without you.

2010-06-02T15:58:00.002-04:00

green tea latte for a rainy summer afternoon

if i say..
im not sure how long will it take you to understand what i really meant, but im willing to wait.

would you believe me?

--
i think i have more than 100 red spots on my body now. the doctor says it will take more than 10 days for them to go away completely.
okayyyy im leaving Canada to beijing with RED DOTS all over.
how wonderful..

2010-06-01T13:48:00.007-04:00

i hate insects

i have 71 insect bites on my arm, legs and feet. the itchyness is driving me crazy, i kept waking up in the middle of the night.

i think i need to see a doctor cause i dont know what kind of insect bites are those, or.. are they even insect bites?

but, i cant find my health card. where the hell is my health card!?
))))))))):

i wanna cry.
i hate credit woodlands.
i will never come back here,
never ever again.

i want to go home.
& i miss you.

2010-05-31T23:42:00.008-04:00

holiday brought forward

yes baby im going back home, to china, on next friday instead of end of june! wont be heading to Henan immediately after Air Canada cause i've to visit the singapore embassy at beijing. most probably i'd be in singapore in july? :D
so, who's gonna be in beijing on june 12! facebook,msn,qq,renren me!!!

invited the girls over today. shared loads of gossips and had some 抹茶 ice cream. teehee. it was gorgeously yummy for a hot summer afternoon :D

i love the sunrays in this picture. 100% natural; not photoshopped (besides the smiley).

daddy's words never fail to cheer me up
mummy's voice never fails to secure me.
this is the reason why i want be home so badly.

i love my family

(:

and i love you too.

2010-05-30T15:08:00.005-04:00

all in?

havent been keeping track of my weight for a month. i bet i'd scream like hell if i were to weigh myself now.
hoho be healthy!

2010-05-27T04:40:00.005-04:00

stupid people fall for stupid tricks.

http://thelittleredcat.blog.163.com/

2010-05-26T01:04:00.008-04:00

click on this picture

but..

2010-05-25T00:44:00.007-04:00

i never meant it that way.
never.

i dont __ know
what else to say and
and perhaps you'd never want
to listen to me again. no matter what,
just wanna let u know that
you meant a lot to me.
i miss you &
im sorry
liu.

2010-05-23T12:43:00.012-04:00

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale

2010-05-22T12:57:00.003-04:00

never again,
or at least not anytime soon.

2010-05-21T22:57:00.005-04:00

lets blow a dandelion

benni do you remember this picture? we took it in front of my house, after coming back from oph or something.

those old days.

everything seems so far away

2010-05-20T01:53:00.008-04:00

my room will be filled with sunlight and brightness.

house-warming party, ladies night, & spending the afternoon on the balcony.

can't wait.

teehee.

2010-05-18T02:36:00.005-04:00

i wish i could

sometimes i'd wonder ,how did i put myself into these situations? why didnt i work harder? i hate it when i get distracted by stupid things.

ignore me.
im just mad at myself for everything.

if i were given another chance,
i'd still choose myself.

2010-05-16T21:03:00.001-04:00

The Sweet Escape

If I could escape
And re-create a place in my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together

Now tell me boy, wouldn't that be sweet?

2010-05-15T00:29:00.004-04:00

nothing is perfect; perfect is nothing.

tomorrow's gonna be a great day!
meeting my loved ones,
and the girls are going to the library.
<3 <3 <3

i'd cry if our starbucks doesnt open on Sats cause im craving for caramel frapp (with extra coffee) like crazyyyyyy.

i'd reveal all my sunshine,
but im just taking one step at a time.

2010-05-11T18:34:00.006-04:00

losing grip

perhaps i shouldnt go to lectures anymore cause i'd rather sleep on my own bed than doze off in the chilly lecture theatre.

am i having PMS or something? cause im even irriated by myself. tskkkkk.
& today's weather sucks.

all i want to do is
hide under my blanket and sleep for days.

2010-05-09T18:55:00.005-04:00

silent & cold.

i can never get used to canada's unpredictable weather. it was 23 degree celsius 3 days ago but right now it's like freaking THREE )':

i dont know what to wear to school tomorrow.. most of my jackets are not with me right now. sighs.

hmmm on a ligher note, i finally received my sandals! ( though im not gonna get a change to wear them anytime soon)

tomorrow's the start of summer school!

are you readyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

lets not ruin the festive mood.. please.

2010-05-08T21:10:00.005-04:00

preparations

i dont know why everyone's making things complicated.
shrugs~

summer courses are starting on this coming monday.to get myself prepared for the new semester, i've been setting my alarm 2 hours earlier each day. 4pm to 2pm, 2pm to 12pm. and finally today was 10am! improvements eh?

im sick of bad weather. it makes me lazy to go anywhere. hopefully there's no rain tomorrow cause kathryn and i desperately want to collect our new shoes @ square one :D

you know what, im kind of looking forward to summer school.

2010-05-06T20:50:00.007-04:00

pictures say a thousand words.

im so disappointed in you.
for all my troubles, i thought you knew?

perhaps this is the reason why i chose to leave.
everything between us is not meant to be.
and, am i really who you see?

back off.
you just know nothing about me.

2010-05-03T03:34:00.002-04:00

just,
can't find the words.

2010-05-01T19:32:00.005-04:00

i love this puppy

finally i got a day to spend some time by myself at home. cleaned the kitchen, did my laundry, and walked doudou around the japanese garden which we found the other day. (:

a simple day like this makes me contented; this is all i need.

2010-04-29T15:55:00.006-04:00

meet me halfway

friends, sorry if i've forgotten to return your missed calls or to reply text messages.cause i havent really been paying attention to my cellphone these days;been been busy.

right after exams, it's as though everything else in the world is meaningless except for spending the time away with my favourite people. i just couldnt bear to say the word good-bye, cause im afraid of what's coming ahead tomorrow. everything second seemed to be luxurious.

pimples are popping out due to the chaos during the nights.

that's why im dedicating my lovely sunny afternoon to:
update my blog with an organic facial mask ,
a plate of fruits,
chinese tea,
and my favourite playlist on itunes.

(:

2010-04-28T00:06:00.003-04:00

need you now

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now

tears are rolling down my cheeks.
damn it.
im such a loser.
crying over my own decision.
loser loser loser.

)':

2010-04-27T03:01:00.007-04:00

my sunny days

had a walk at high park today,the cherry trees are soooo beautiful. everyone should go out to feel spring!

met up with leo on mon & had our usual activities. stupid adrian gan was too busy with to join us.tsk tsk tsk.

every holiday = good time catching up with old friends
(:
& more and coming up..

honey,
i feel the difference.
why cant we just talk about it?
you know how much you mean to me.
my bff, dont wanna lose you, at all.

2010-04-25T01:38:00.011-04:00

a short break before summer term

since the last exam, i have been sleeping for 2 hours/day.
im exhausteddddddddddd ):

almost teared when i was packing. i thought of everything that happened in this house.

lunch with random lin100mates! they stayed in the library for the WHOLE NIGHT.

odd item found in the rubbish bin of a study room. is this how U of T students celebrate for their last exam ? -.- wth

it felt terrible to be the last group to finish exams ): it used to be so crowded.
i missed everyone.

we are back to sun menghe's place, where we were for last christmas.
memories kept coming back.
and that sucks.

but how long would you be?

2010-04-22T12:39:00.010-04:00

perseverance.

about half a year ago,i was at the lowest point of my life. it affected me quite badly. i wasnt strong enough to make the best choices. i lost my grid of everything i had.

now, i got myself back on track. sadly, the opportunities which was given to me are gone by now. i dont have any excuses to give cause i shouldnt have any.

no, im not going to let it slip away from me again.
im not giving up.
even if there's just tiny little hope..

to be honest, i am confident of the future and myself.
cause i believe i can.
please, give me one more chance.
would you?

sunny, be strong.
& friends please, dont ask me anything.
thanks. i just wanna be alone.

2010-04-21T15:49:00.008-04:00

with those cupids up in the empyrean,
could you please tell me it's not just a dream?

<3

2010-04-17T15:52:00.010-04:00

what's ahead?

cherry and i attended this exam prep course, which was held in an inn -.-

cold, hungry, sleepy and sucky food ):

fascinated by this beautiful inn, we explored around during the break :D

oh yay MGT is over! i was being dumb for not focusing on the important chapters.hmm anyway it's over, lets just hope for the best..

thanks to final exams, I LOST 2KG! i was really shocked cause we've been eating take-outs and sitting on the chair everydayyyyy. haha you know what, i love exams now cause i get to loose weight! (ya right)

sob or celebrate?
there's only LIN100 left..

2010-04-16T02:53:00.003-04:00

missed

prof Bailey's facebook status says, " is DONE grading 100, grades to ROSI tomorrow!" ok im freaking out right nowwwwwwwwwwwww.

MAT133 results were out on thursday morning. honestly, i was a little disappointed with myself . maybe i could have spent more time on it? maybe i was too careless? or did i expect too much? sighs. im..just not really satisfied with my grades..

two more exams to go; MGT120 & LIN100. my goals were 85% and 77%. gosh damn it. are they even realistic?!

and, i know it was long over but im still whining about it all day long,
WHY DIDNT I GET THAT 2% FOR MANAGEMENT LAST YEAR.im still pissed with myself for that. grrrrr.

ok enough of complains.
8 hours of sleep here i come.

im missing you, again

2010-04-12T17:16:00.006-04:00

ECO100 tomorrow

why eco courses in univerisity are so tough.
im struggling like hell right now.
):

exam period is all about starbucks.

the monopoly in CCT building.

could you please stay a little longer?

2010-04-08T22:13:00.003-04:00

there's some kind of magic in the air

all i want to do is
lie and the bed and slack.
tsk tsk tsk.
im feeling so lethargic now.
i hate cramps.

)':

2010-04-07T01:23:00.004-04:00

bad hair day

i was looking through old photos yesterday. it made me realized that my university life is getting worse each day.

several months ago,
my hair was in a better condition.
i loved my fringe.
i used to do mask 2 times a week.
i had time to catch up with some old friends & watch dramas.
there was anthropology readings to amuse me.
i was never afraid to log on to portal.
the number on my weighing scale was smaller.
and, i used to have a shoulder to cry on 24/7.

im so glad that it's coming to the end of uni year one.
i think i need a break from all these mess,
though i have some little things to look forward to these days.
(:

3 days to final exams.
good luck to everyone.

2010-04-05T01:28:00.003-04:00

would you?

exams are starting this coming saturday which means there's only a week left for revisions.

stupid sunny you gotta stay focused.
):

it's complicated,
way too complicated.

2010-04-02T00:24:00.002-04:00

life is full of surprises.

& i love those little surprises from you.

2010-03-29T02:39:00.005-04:00

it's hurting like crazy.

help.

2010-03-29T00:29:00.006-04:00

if a picture paints a thousand words
then why can't I paint you

sundays are making me a little moody these days.

checked the last eco test results on portal. my heart sank when i open the 'grades' tab.haaaa how on earth did i get that kind of pathetic marks?

next, i opened the freshly posted MGT test solutions. all i saw was unfamiliar phrases and numbers.and then i asked myself again, what on earth did i write on my test paper?

you know,
life really sucks when the party is over,
tomorrow is a monday,
and you dont get the call which you've been waiting for.

just,
give me a bundle of ballo0ns
and i'd fly away with them.